Gareth Emery Feat. Bo Bruce - U

U was the first single released from Gareth Emery's Drive. The lyrics are strong and often move us to tears. So what does the track mean to us? What story does it tell..

The lyrics "looking at the wreckage anyone would guess that all inside had died but I’m alive" this is appropriately dissimilar to me. For me its easy to put on a fake smile and pretend everything is okay when its not. Its easy to wear that smile on the outside when in fact I’m crying on the inside. I think many people go through life feeling this way and faking it. Maybe that’s why the beauty industry is so large and booming. Maybe ladies put on make up to hide the scars, the pain the hurt. To make them feel good about themselves on the outside with the hope of feeling good on the inside.

Having fought an uphill battle of unhappiness leading a life that felt like a roller-coaster for years I know how it feels to be down and out. The downs always seem to be pretty deep and long and last for ever and they deffo visit more often, while the highs don’t last and are rare. I know what it feels like to be lonely and feel worthless And to feel like a failure with no future. Going through feelings like this most of my life taught me how to  be strong and how to fight when inside all I really wanted was to runaway and get away.

With that said, all it takes is one person, a dream, a want, a passion to keep you going. Just something to give you a reason to wake up for in the morning.  To make you feel worthy and to feel as if you have a purpose. All we need is a motivation to push us in the right direction towards where we want to be. Someone to ask if we okay, to take our hand and guide us to the light.  U makes me think back to that one reason why we are here, have you lived to the fullest, are you living with a purpose? Think about it are you really happy with you and what you have accomplished?  What motivates you to keep going? When you close your eyes who do you see?

Yas.. xx

 Let's see what Layla has to say about U...

What can I say about this track, well I think what gets me is definitely the lyrics! This is going to sound so cheesy and lame but admit it as much as we can pretend to be all strong and tough and mean and bad ass, by the law of nature there is always someone who can rattle that!  Scary is that sometimes our human psychology allows ourselves to feel all down and out because of another human being!  Yeah we all go through it HEARTBREAK at some stage in life or another. Truth is we all not wired the same and for some this is a lot lot lot more difficult than others!

This is totally personal and a true story and it’s ‘kinda weird writing about it but hey I’ve learnt and lived and I feel like sharing a side of me that may just be the light in someone’s life someday. Yes I was and am all tough and “ice queenie” when it comes to letting people in….. until I met someone who  broke through all that, words and actions I thought were true and genuine!! I trusted him and let him into my world because he seemed so real … WELL I’m sure you can guess what happened. He turned out to be,  well totally opposite, he lied to me, manipulated me and made me feel worthless and like I was to blame for every bad thing that happened in the relationship! The sad thing is that I (normally super smart) was so blinded but what I thought I felt that I refused to see this and fought a pointless battle that killed me inside. When the pieces of the puzzle started falling into place in my brain and the neurons started firing right, I finally woke up to the cold reality and yes it pushed me to edge! I was wrecked, broken into a million pieces….for months I felt like I was dead inside, I shut out everything and everyone close to me : those that loved me and tried to help me…my sister, my best friend!!

I went through the days just numb… and then I started business school. I know this is going to sound nerdy but hey this really helped reignite my desire to pursue my dreams and goals and ambitions which I had given up on! Even more recently, someone randomly just kinda came into my life by total chance…. and sorta just made me realise just how stupid I had been! Funny is that I for the first time in months feel happy for real. That kind of happy when you read what they say and you smile for no reason or when talk to them and they make you blush! Yeah it feels like I’m alive again! Cliched I know! So yes early days but hey maybe this will be the song the one day describes everything I went through to get to my happy place! Only time will tell…..(Oh and if he reads this then im soooo exposed (>.<))!

Layla xx